Why am I doing this.

Ok, today when I was walking for over 27km with a really painful foot, one that at times had me at a crawling speed, the thought crept into my head. I kept thinking of how I would love to be able to enjoy the hot summer weather wearing my fun summer clothes, feeling feminine and sexy, not sweaty, achy and dreadfully unsexy. But, still I want to make it to Santiago. WHY? I´m not sure if I totally undertand it but there is something happening inside of me as I walk and keep reaching a new milestone, day after day. And I experience life by myself and with myself, cleansing my body both physically and emotionally as I sweat and meditate while walking. And it is truly satisfying at the end of the day when I´ve overcome whichever obstacles that have come my way and I´ve reached my destination. The interesting part is how this applies to the rest of my life. When I´ve been moving too fast, I´ve been taught to slow down. Three times this has happened so far, and if I´m distracted I´ve been taught to refocus (Estella). How am I operating in my life at home? Am I mindful in my day to day life,being truly present or am I moving too fast there too, forgetting to truly be? I am thinking about these things too. The camino is here to teach me what I need to know and I try to listen and learn my lessons.