Thoughts.

A few more thoughts about the journey. Ever since I started this process I've been working on getting to know and love myself. Who am I? What makes me happy, sad, scared, excited; or plainly just want to get up in the morning, ready to take on the day with a smile on my face? I can truly say that instead of being my own best friend I was extremely good at being my own worst enemy. I'd kick myself over and over for simple mistakes and the concept of not being good enough was simply a statement of fact for me. Believing that I deserve true happiness and an opportunity to shine in this world was a far fetched idea. Yet, the inner knowing was grinding away at me and my body started to speak out; loud and clear. So I finally used the inner strength that I've been blessed with and left a marriage that was unhealthy and draining . With three young boys and still an opportunity for a good life I chose my freedom; one that came at a steep price. But despite the cost it was worth it. It is true that the hardest times are the richest times; the times where one grows the most as a human being. I have learned some fundamental things which have changed my life forever. I know when I'm operating from fear and when I'm operating from love; when my ego is in the driver seat and when I'm having a higher perspective. I know there is a different way to be and to live, one that supports me and everyone else, one that sees the perfection in all situations and the messages and lessons presented, one that knows that gratitude for it all is the key to making the shift and find peace happiness in the midst of all the caos of life as it unfolds for me. I also know that I'm human and make lots of mistakes all the time....just to keep me being a student of life forever.