Moving on!

We've finally moved!!! I got my ultimate wish and leased out our old house-furnished. So we start over in the new house with literally nothing. I bought new mattresses, some key items for the kitchen and a new washer and dryer. That's it! What a great opportunity to start over, with a clean slate. I wanted to leave as much of the memories behind as I could and I did.
The last day in the old house the kids and I went through the house talking about our memories from all the rooms. I have many not so good memories and I thought the kids did too. Fortunately, I let them take the lead telling me what they remembered from the variour rooms, and to my surprise their memories were mostly recent, with a few old ones. But, none of them were traumatic! I was surprised, and relieved. Kids are naturally inclined to live in the present and they don´t hold on to stuff like we adults do. So our walk through the house became a celebration of our life there and closure of it as we said goodbye. Since it so timely was full moon that night we burned some paper in the fire, on which we had written stuff we wanted to let go of. As it is a personal experience I do not know what they wrote, but we loved watching the paper burn. We have done this before on full moon. During some of the rough times after our separation we would write down things we wanted to let go of; thoughts and feelings that did not serve us. The kids loved doing it and it seemed to be a safe and fun way to process some of their (and mine) painful thoughts and feelings. And on our last day in the house we did it again.

When I closed the doors that night I was peaceful about leaving and it truly felt like the right thing to do. I have had mixed feeling about leaving as this was the house that I had lived in the longest since I moved away from home, more than twenty years ago. But I know that our home is where we are together and as long as we are together then the location is secondary.

Being able to start over is truly a gift and I am eternally grateful for the opportunity. So many things have fallen into place to facilitate this opportunity that I do believe that there is a higher power supporting this change. For one, two years ago when I had spent alot of the money that I was going to get by on for the year (during the divorce process) on the lot for the new house I was down to the bone and had maxed out my visa. One day there was a note in my door with a request to view my house as a potential location for a movie. I thought they were dropping these notes in every door in the neighbourhood so I did not rush to call back. Monday morning I decided to call them back (three days after the note), but before they even got the message I had someone from the movie company on my door asking to take some pictures. By Friday morning I had a bus load with about twenty people walking through my house and long and behold they chose my house as one of their locations. I got paid and cleaned up my visa. It was a great expereince and my dream of moving on was supported.

I got to sleep in the new house for six nights before the boys and I left for Norway. It was a great start and now I'm on a break from everything for a while-YEAH! Life is good!!!